I'm [kind of?] a perfectionist. And by kind of, I mean I am one.
There could be numerous reasons why this has become one of my personality traits, but that is not the purpose of why I am writing. I'm writing to give a shout out to all of you other beautiful people who might be struggling with any type of infidelity in your relationship and possibly think that if you become more perfect, he/she will love you more and the porn/sexual behaviors less.
That's not all of why I'm a perfectionist, but it is certainly a driving factor [or at least has been in the past].
I'm not perfect. I will never be perfect in this life. I wasn't made for that.
I was made to be me. Some of my traits are better than others, and that is okay. I'm a work in progress.
Don't stress about being more perfect. Just don't. Whatever. It will come. Focus on YOU. Allow yourself to just BE.
You are beautiful the way you are. You aren't perfect, and that's okay. You weren't meant to be perfect right now. You are growing. You are becoming. You will become your best self, and that is the person you were destined to be. Perfection will come later. Right now you are discovering!
Don't stretch yourself too thin, trying to achieve things that are really insignificant in the grand scheme of things.
Don't allow yourself to be bullied or manipulated into things that are not necessary.
And DON'T dwell on how much of a failure you are. Because you're not. If you're reading this blog, you are most definitely not a failure, and you are probably way stronger than you imagine. If you're reading this blog, you're likely in a similar boat as me, and you are most definitely awesome.
We are in a tricky situation, you and me. It's more than a tough boat to find yourself in.
So, you know what? You can be tired. You can cry. You can punch pillows and scream at your dog. You can break dishes and throw things at the wall.
You don't have to be perfect and pulled together all the time. You actually don't have to be like that ever. You can be barely skating by, and it may be your best self that day. Just take care of yourself. Find yourself.
If you're messy, that's okay. Life is messy.
But whatever you do, don't try to be perfect. Try to find yourself and be happy with who you are.
[It's a lot more fun than trying to be perfect.]